Yep, being the seasonal blogger I am, you know what it means when I suddenly show up on this blog again.
Gosh, it’s been almost a year since my last post, huh? Can’t believe time went by that fast.
Ah, I don’t know where to start..
The last one year has been such a roller-coaster of emotions for me. Oh, and I (almost) fell into depression (again). Yup, it’s been one helluva year. I survived that, though, and I began to love my job more than I ever loved anything I’ve ever done in my life.
But maybe.. I’ve fallen in love too deeply. And nothing with the prefix ‘too’ has ever gone good. I know I’ve always told myself to not care about what people say, as long as do what I believe is right.. But well, apparently letting your heart take control is not all that good after all.
I let my heart lead the way, but apparently I ignored my logic completely.. and I almost ruined everything.
I’m in too deep.
I don’t know why this always happens to me. The moment I care, I ruin everything.
Because I’d do it wholeheartedly. I’d care too much.
And I ruined it. Again.
I might need to pull myself away for now. Keep my distance. Try to care less.
Thank goodness I have somewhere else to put my focus on..
“I can’t help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I’m sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel..”
– Papa Roach, ‘Scars’
I have other news that might be more exciting to share, but.. in another post, maybe. Right now I’m just too mellow to write anything else..
But hey! Thank goodness for all those mellow-ness. Here I am writing again. Guess there’s always a brighter side to everything…