The Place I Belong

OneRepublic - Counting Stars. Play video for lyrics.

I just re-listened to this song thoroughly today, and realized that this is the theme song to my career turning point :)

Yes, I feel like I’ve given up a lot for the work I’m doing right now, but I think it’s totally worth it. I feel like I’m where I’m supposed to be. I’m in the best job I can possibly be in :)

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It’s My Life

It’s my life
It’s now or never
I ain’t gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I’m alive

It’s my life
My heart is like an open highway
Like Franklin said, “I did it my way”
I just wanna live while I’m alive

Bon Jovi – It’s My Life

Lagu ini masih terus terngiang-ngiang di kepala gue sampe saat ini, tetapi itu nggak bikin gue kesel (seperti mungkin umumnya lagu yang terngiang-ngiang di pikiran), justru bikin gue lebih semangat :)

Ya, baru dalam 4 hari kebelakang ini gue bener-bener mendalami lirik lagu ini, dan meresapi maknanya. Ini hidup gue. Hidup gue adanya sekarang; nanti, besok, lusa, siapa yang tahu? Only Allah knows. Gue punya pilihan untuk menentukan hidup gue. Mau seperti apa? Mau dibawa kemana?

Dan ternyata gue udah pernah menulis tentang pilihan loh di sini. (Baru nyadar, hahaha. Terus sekarang nulis apa dong yah.)

Oh, iya. Kalau gitu sekarang gue nulis tentang kesadaran deh. Bahasa kerennya (eh, Bahasa Inggrisnya ding) sih awareness.

Apa itu awareness? Awareness adalah kesadaran. (Lah, dibolak-balik doang.)

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What Revolution Will You Lead?

Now it goes down to this one simple question, which is not so simple to answer…

If I had written this post about one and a half month ago, I might have written boldly about how I want to lead a revolution in education, especially in my home country.

But then some things happened, and I was faced with some harsh realities (which I now realize that it may just be my reality) that made me feel not so sure about it. It even made me skip this LYL challenge for a month. I don’t want this post to be too long, so if you really want to know about what happened, you may read the story in the other post. (link to be updated)

It made me so doubtful of myself. I seriously doubted my competence and capabilities to actually lead that kind of revolution. I feel like I’ve really screwed up and feel so small that there’s no way I’d be able to do that.

But after a few pep talk with myself, talking to people (more like exchanging ideas, not talking about my problems though), and a lot of prayers.. I finally tell myself that I just gotta do it. I just gotta do something, anything I can think of, anything I could possibly do right now. Who cares if I can or cannot do it? I still want to make it happen. At least I know where I want to go. I’ll do something and I might at least learn something, no matter how little it is. Eventually I’ll figure out how to get there.

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What Difference Do You Want To Make?

Okay, I know this challenge is long overdue; it’s supposed to be a 7 days blog challenge and I started it in mid April.. now it’s almost the end of May and I still haven’t completed these challenges.

But..well, I guess finishing late is better than never finishing at all, huh?

So the big question of the (supposed to be) 6th day of the challenge is:

What difference do you want to make in the world? What impact do you want to have? How do you want to make things a little better for society? What do you want to be remembered for once you’re gone?

Now that I think about it, I guess what I really want to do is to live my life fully aware, and help people to build awareness as well. I want people (and especially myself, of course) to live their lives fully aware, because awareness is the first (but I believe it’s the most important) thing that actually gives us purpose to do something. Our level of awareness determines how we make decisions. We make decisions and act based on what we’re aware of.

I think I’ve ever read somewhere that we are creatures of routines. Perhaps we are so adapted in living in routines that most of the time, most of us might not realize that we’re living lives in some kind of autopilot. Since we all make decisions and act based on what we know and are aware of, don’t you think that awareness is actually very essential here?

Now, being aware makes a whole lot difference. It is different from simply knowing. Perhaps you might know something, let’s say, an information; if you are not aware that the information is relevant to the situation that you are facing, most likely you wouldn’t include that information in your situation. Therefore, even if we have knowledge or power, without awareness, most likely these knowledge or power wouldn’t live to its true purpose.

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What’s The One Thing You’re Proud Of?

The one thing I’m proud of, is probably being able to push myself out a lot from my comfort zone, and discovering a lot more of myself from doing so. One of which is by making a contra-popular decision to leave my job in corporate business and starting a career in education, although my background has been rather scientific. I sort of have written about this in my other post, but I guess today there are more things I am aware of, compared to when I wrote the post.

What started out as one act of pushing myself out of the comfort zone (leaving such a promising job, rank, salary), continued to extract a greater will to keep pushing myself out of my comfort zone, until I realized that I’ve discovered things I never knew I had. I’ve never felt so alive before. I realized that there’s this huge potential I’ve never noticed at all. Where have I been all my life?

The thing is, I always thought of myself as an introvert, an antisocial. Meeting people was the least thing I’d like to do. I don’t like to open up to people I barely know, I don’t want to seem stupid or vulnerable. I even passed up a lot of group hangouts, avoiding places where I might bump into somebody I know. I’d rather avoid being in awkward situation of not being able to start or keep a conversation going.

But ever since I decided to leave my job, somehow I started to push myself to do things I don’t usually do, because I’m changing my life and career direction into something (almost) completely new to me. So I guess I had to try to do things in a different way. I started to make new acquaintances, at first it was because I needed some information, and most of my existing friends or colleagues wouldn’t know about it because most of them are in the same or similar background like mine (i.e., engineering/industrial).

Realizing that I need much more information and insights, I start meeting more and more people. And then I realized I actually liked it. I liked meeting people, getting new ideas,  knowledge, insights. I even got kind of addicted to it.

I used to avoid meeting people, but now I feel like I wouldn’t pass up a chance to meet people, even meeting someone new. I just realized how much I enjoy building a network, getting to know awesome people, listening to their great ideas, even sharing them my thoughts and ideas.

I am proud of myself for being able to push through what I thought was the limit, to find new opportunities out there, and most importantly, to discover so much potential in me.

Featured image from  The Worry Free Life.